The Small Things That Matter

Kids are wonderful aren't they? They make life grand and interesting to say the least. In the last few days Andre and Kaleb have made some discoveries and those moments were just wonderful to witness.

Last night as Mike, Andre and I were sitting on the couch watching a movie Andre must have gotten board and became restless while trying to find a comfortable spot on my oh so soft belly he lays his head there and stops dead for a few seconds, as I watch his face with amazement and confusion he says in a hushed surprised tone" Mommy! That making noise" I asked him what was making noise knowing all to well what he was talking about but wanted to hear it from him " Your belly" he replies. I said yep my belly makes noise and so does yours and daddies too! He then proceeded to ask why and I explained in the simplest terms I could think of for a three year old. He took the explanation quite well but with such amazement. It was just one of those moments that will be embedded in my brain that when he is grown and out of the house I will be able to recall and enjoy all over again.

Kaleb on the other hand decided to bless my day today with blowing kisses. I've been doing this to him for months and he has now learned how to make the noise and so every time he seen me today I got lots of kisses blown to me along with giggles and flirty smiles.

Small moments with the two of them that will last me a life time of joy.Such wonderful gifts and blessings provided by Gods beautiful children.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to us our whole household is infected with a bad cold and flu bug! It started with Kaleb on Christmas morning and has since continued with Andre and I'm pretty sure I'll be next this afternoon to be making trips to the potty *sigh*.

Hope every ones Christmas was good and hope you all have a happy new year! I'll be back as soon as I disinfect everything from top to bottom.

Ego Boost

Today I got a wonderful voicemail from my dad thanking me for the joyous day he had with my boys yesterday(Wednesday). You see every Wednesday he watches my boys for me while I go to work and then we usually go to lunch. Well yesterday was a bit different, I was pretty sick with a cold so I cut work short and came home to veg while he took my sick boys out to his house for a few hours.

So today while listening to my voicemail he told me thank you for allowing him time with my boys and he explained that he watched Kaleb and Andre play on the floor and how this was the first time that he had seen them actually interact with each other and how hard Andre had Kaleb laughing. He said how wonderful it was to see such good, happy kids and that it is all because of me. (Blush) He said (gulp) that "I'm the best mother he knows" and "what a wonderful job I've done with them"(blush).

This is the BEST compliment I could ever get and it means more to me then words can say. I always compare myself to my dad because I think he is/was the best father anyone could ever have and I think how lucky I was to be raised by him. I often worry that I will never be able to teach my children everything my dad taught me but I'm trying my best. I am VERY blessed to have my dad he does more for me and never questions or asks for anything in return.

Thank you God for giving me my daddy.

Blessings

Wow, has God blessed us. I know that those of you who have read my blogs from the start know that my husband and I have had some money issues and times were tough. Well ask and you shall recieve, pray and you shall not go unheard. We are doing better now, our bills are all paid and we are still ahead. Christmas there will be gifts to exchange to celebrate the Lord and God willing we will continue to follow this path.

Speaking of blessings have you seen this beautiful snow that we were blessed with? Andre LOVES it Kaleb isn't fond of it yet but in due time I'm sure he and Andre will be enjoying the snow fights in years to come. I will post some pictures below of the boys in the snow. Andre had a blast as I taught him snow angels and the fun of a good old fashioned snow ball fight, what are moms for anyway? Well off I go to bed as tomorrow is a work day along with finishing the shopping for Christmas.


Andre's very first snow angel

Dear Angel

I've been thinking of you a lot lately, you must be visiting me to offer me comfort during this time of need. It's hard for me to believe that you would have been a year old this month, hmm I wonder what you would have been doing now.

I know that your beautiful and I know that if you ever had any pain while you were here it is gone. I know that your with your sibling right now playing in God's wonderful gardens. It saddens me that I can't see that but I know in God's time I will and we will all play together soon.

Though the pain of losing you was great I'm thankful God brought you Home when he did. It was a blessing in disguise for me. I'm sure your watching over your brothers, thank you for that. I'm sure both Andre and Kaleb see you and your sibling from time to time and though they may not know it now you comfort them too.

I may never understand why you couldn't be here with us and I'm still not sure what the lesson was but maybe some day there will be some light shed on me so I can put the peices together.

It's been hard through the last year. Your Aunt is having a baby this month and I won't lie it hurts. I have so many questions that go unanswered. No one understands my pain and why I feel the way I do, heck I don't even understand why I feel the way I do so why should they? I won't deny I'm jealous of her, she has been pregnant twice and have kept both babies, both babies due the same time you and your sibling were due. But I try to push through and be happy for her, it's hard but I try. God has a plan for everyone and lessons for each of us. He won't give us more then we can handle though sometimes we think enough is enough He is in control and we have release our burdens to Him.

Anyway Happy Birthday Angel, you may have not been born here on earth but you were in Heaven. I love you and miss you.

Mom

Oh Dearest Zoe

How I love thee. You make life joyful and glee.Your stories are full of laughter and fun. The way you talk of anything under the sun. I'm sorry I left you out my dear you know I love you and I'll keep you near!

A Reflection Of Sorts

Wow, isn't it funny how life brings you bends, turns, friends and family? I'm a firm believer that God brings you people when you need them the most and though you don't know what that reason is for the time or you may never know sometimes you can figure it out.....at some point or another ;)

You see I'm very thankful for the people who have been in my life for long and short periods even if something ended badly or good for that matter you always learn from it and move on. In the long run it makes you the person you are.

I'm reflecting on this because there is a wonderful women who I met about three years ago through work and when we got to talking it just so happened that I knew her son through my husband. I knew that she had something special about her just from the short talks we had, I've learned a lot from her. Laughing I think now she was the first person that made me thing twice about circ'ing my children LOL. Anyway we don't talk much and we see each other on a hit and miss basis but I always enjoyed her company. She has been through some hard times in the last few weeks but through it all she has been strong and pushed through. She has taught me that though things happen for whatever reason you look ahead, look for the good and don't look back. Live for the here and now because the future can be scary and the past is the past. Thank you Kathy, you never know who's heart you might touch from day to day.

God puts people in your path for a reason, season, or a lifetime. Learn from them, love them, care for them, grow with them.