Helpless totally helpless

Last night my dad stopped by and picked the kids up so that Mike and I could have a break. Had we known then what we know now I would have kept them home.

At 10 am I received a call from my dad which I thought was him telling me he was bringing the kids back, I was VERY wrong. I heard him say "I told you to put the dog outside not in the basement" and then he hung up so I waited a few seconds for him to get his barrings together and I called back. He answers and I say hello then he proceeded to tell me that there was a problem, Kaleb had just had a seizure and the EMS were there getting ready to take him to the hospital. Talk about helpless, I didn't know what to do, I was speechless, this had never happened before what happen to my precious baby?

He told me that he had a slight fever but nothing big and he had stopped eating at 3 am. Okay so what is wrong with him? He said that my step mom had laid him down for a morning nap and he woke up crying, she went in to get him and when she picked him up his eyes rolled in the back of his head, he turned blue and had started seizing for about 2 min. She rushed him to the bathtub to cool him off and in the meantime my dad called 911.

Mike and I met them at foote when they brought the bed in with my dad strapped to it while he held Kaleb you could see in Kaleb's eyes that something wasn't right. I immeadatly took him while they took temps and urine samples and then called for IV'S along with chest x-rays and heart rate. His temp at the time of arrival was 104.7 they were pretty sure it spiked over 105 when he seized. His heart rate was 75 bpm fairly high for a little one but with a temp that is normal. So IV of fluids, Motrin and chest x-ray his temp came down the blood test came normal but the x-ray showed pneumonia. So after 4 1/2 hrs in the ER we finally got home and are settled in.

Let me say that first I NEVER want to go through that again, and second I praise God for watching over my son and allowing it to be something that is treatable and semi small.

Update On Us

I figured that I would post an update on how we are all doing, not that much is going on in our lives but sometimes its nice to just have a quick update from the ones you love so here it is, I hope someone loves me ;)

Andre~What can I say, he is a typical 3 1/2 yr old who is finding his own voice in this big, big world. He is testing the waters and loving, trying, and funny. The things he says sometimes blows me away. He is growing in to a very cute young boy if I do say so myself. He is very smart sometimes to smart but he will find his way, I'm sure of that.

Kaleb~A very happy almost 11 month old, who never cries unless you have food and he doesn't. He is my moose, big, strong, and gentle. He loves to flirt with his big blue eyes and will flash a smile in a hot second that will melt the coldest of hearts. He has gotten quick at taking food and shoving it in his mouth and then smiling like he has no idea what your talking about LOL. Smart kid, since he will be fighting for food with his daddy ;)

Mike~Doing very well, being a WONDERFUL husband and finding himself along the way. He has found the wonderment of children and loves to play with the kids. He still has a few games he likes to play but only after things are done for the night and its "down" time. We have one that we play together but gosh I just can't stay up late anymore LOL.

Me~Working part-time still and a full time mom. I don't have much down time but the time I do have is usually spent here at the computer. I've been quite exhusted lately and not sure what is going on there. I'll be having a check up at the end of Feb for my PPH and I'm hoping that everything is fine with that. After that I'll be at the YMCA begining my workout to get myself back to being healthy. I miss the treadmil and swimming but after having Kaleb and being diagnosed with PPH it through me for a loop but I'll get there LOL.......at some point. In April as I posted before we will hopefully be moving into Mike's Grandma and Grandpa's house on a rent to own basis sooooo it will be OUR NEW HOME!!!! YAY YAY YAY! Our first house and big enough to never move again LOL. I can't wait!

Thats about all for us, I hope you all are doing well I've kept you all in my prayers and thoughts and with that I'm heading to get Kaleb to bed and read to Andre then him into bed with the hopes of me not to far after. God is good and continue to praise him, he can do GREAT things.

My Grandma......again.

Ladies she isn't doing well. I have the feeling my dad is candy coating it for me because he lost it on the phone with me just a few minutes ago. She is still in ICU, with an oxygen mask on because she can't breathe on her own yet. She can do the physical things they ask of her but she doesn't know who anyone is. So not like my grandma, she is sharp as a pin. I'm at my wits end right now, bawling because its scaring the crap out of me. I know that one day it will be her time along with my dad which I NEVER want to think about but I'm not ready for this(are we ever ready really?) Please send up your prayers for her and my family.

God DOES listen.

We got some wonderful news today, that we have been praying for, for the last two or more years. Mike's grandma called today from Florida and has asked us to take over their house in Michigan Center. We would be paying less then what we are now in our apartment and the bills would stay about the same with the exception of no water bill!

This means so much to us, their house has been in the family for years and my husband wanted it so bad, it means our own place and a fenced yard for our kids to play in! It has enough room for all of us plus a guest room and a play room! We have continued to pray for this and our prayers are being answered.

We have been looking for a house for a long time now and we just haven't found "the one", I kept saying that God will provide when it is time and I truly believe that. We couldn't find "the one" because it was already in front of us we just had to wait for God to tell us it was time. Just goes to show who is really in charge of your life huh?

So in April when they come back up we will be moving then, until that point I will continue to pray that this will all work out and be right for us. As for now I'm off to bed right after I finish my thoughts and prayers. Good night and God Bless.

My Grandma

Quick update on my grandma, she came out of surgery okay and is now in the ICU, where she will reamian for up to 48 hours pending everything stays on the up and up. After that she will be moved to a room for about a week the a step down before ending up at home in a little over a month.

Thank you all for your prayers they helped tremendously. When I talked with my dad he said that her surgery took half the time they had expected. Now we all can breathe a bit eaiser and with any hope she will stronger in the weeks to come and be back to her normal energetic self soon. Thank you all again.

Today

Today was a long day to say the least. After work I headed to lunch with my dad, step-mom and the boys and from there to Ann Arbor to see my grandma at St.Joe's. Her open heart surgery is tomorrow at 6 am and I'm worried. This is a long recovery for her and she is very weak. My head is foggy, everyone around me is having problems and its taking a toll on me.

I don't have many words today, don't really know where to start or end. Things are going on with my dad that I'm not happy about and I feel like I have no voice. I don't understand and I know all to well how this feels. I know some times we aren't meant to understand but when it involves someone I love I feel the need to understand.

I'm confused and foggy, sad and thoughtful, strong and weak, tired and energetic. I am me but I am not. Where do I go from here?

On Your Mark, Get Set, GO!

I'm not sure the day will ever come when Kaleb walks on his own and to be honest I'm not really pushing the issue either but today shocked both Mike and I and it goes like this.

I'm sitting in my lazy boy with Kaleb, I set him down as Mike and I are talking. Mike is on the couch at the other end of where I am. Kaleb who is hanging on to the couch, looks at his daddy as Mike says "Hi buddy" Kaleb takes off running literally (while hanging on to the couch) toward his daddy. You would have thought Mike and I seen a ghost the way our mouths hung open and our eyes were so wide. LOL. What a blessing to be able for both of us to witness this big step in this little man's beginnings.



And now for a few pictures of Kaleb getting ready for school.



One of Andre because he is just cute: