A Simple Touch

Of my toddlers hand, a lay of their heads on me, a quick smile, a loving "Mommy", or a long warm hug and cuddle in the early morning makes EVERYTHING worth it.

Their sweet smelling, soft as silk, warm as fire skin can turn a very long, trying, horrible day into Heaven for me. To me it's amazing how this simple thing happens. With all the worries that we adults have in this world it only takes a second for them to melt away as I'm loved by my children.

What a blessing children are in general, but to take the time and realize this is what is missing out of a lot of peoples life's. I know all to well how it is to get wrapped up in day to day life, or even yourself and your problems, but we need to remember that these sweet, innocent life's that were given to us need us to take the time, even just a second to feed their soles and their confidence with a simple "I love you", or a hug, you'd be surprised at how much it feeds your sole too!

My Dear Andre

I know this week has been hard for you just like it has on everyone else, actually I know its been more hard on you being only 4 and not understanding fully why mommy is gone. You've done so well at having fun with your grandparents and dealing with me being gone but I know its taking a toll on you. I can hear in your voice now when I talk to you that your missing me and missing the "normalicy" of our life. Please honey bare with me for a bit longer and mommy will be home to cuddle you when your not feeling well and coax you through the hard times.

I love you so much and you've done so well for being put in the situation that your in. Being bounced from place to place has never been easy on you but your doing well and I promise I will do my best to make it up to you when I get home. Dry your tears, your daddy loves you too and know that I cry for you every night. Your such a good big brother!

Best Friends

I could not ask for anything more from my two boys. I thank God daily that when I prayed for a girl while pregnant with Kaleb he did not answer those prayers. These two are the best of friends. Andre says on a daily basis "Kaleb you are my bestfriend". Seriously is there anything better? Not in my book.

Andre begs for me to get Kaleb down from the highchair so that "he can come play with me in my room". "Come on Kaleb lets go play in my room". Not long after that I hear outbursts of child laughter. The kind of laughter where you as a mom sit and just listen for a moment and take it all in.

Of course there are always those small moments where one or the other wants to be left alone and they get snippy with each other but when those moments pass they are back to being buddies and hard a play.

Andre can make Kaleb laugh like no other. To watch them interact with each other amazes me. The things that Andre teaches Kaleb is never ending and what Kaleb picks up from Andre is unbeliveable.

As I type this I'm listening to Andre sing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" to Kaleb and I'm sure that Kaleb is looking at him with those huge blue eyes and dancing away, loving every min of his brother singing to him as he has done since we brought him home.