Couldn't Ask For More

As I put the kids to bed tonight, I sit and listen by myself( Mike is at a friends house ) to my two beautiful, loving little boys who may fight every once in a while yell back and fourth to each other as their nightly routine. It starts usually with Kaleb and it goes something like this......

Kaleb: Ondee(Andre)

Andre: What

Kaleb: I Wove U

Andre: I love you too

Long pause

Kaleb: Ondee, knock, knock

Andre:Who is there

Kaleb: Papa or whoever comes to mind at the moment

Then it is Andre's turn for Knock, Knock. If Kaleb is upset about something it goes something like this........

Andre: Kaleb your alright, don't cry, we can play together tomorrow

Kaleb: sobbing "K"

Kaleb: Ondee

Andre: What?

Kaleb: I Wove U

Then we proceed to Knock, Knock. This will go on for a few mins sometimes its back and fourth of exchanges of "Night nights" and "I love yous" instead, but its always something. I know that growing up there will be times where they don't get along and don't want to be seen together but I pray that they will always have this same love for each other.

I remember being pregnant for Kaleb and thinking "Oh my God what have I done? Andre won't be loved as much" and so on, most moms know where I'm coming from on this. And most moms who had two or more kids told me I was giving Andre the best gift ever. I thought they were nuts, siblings don't get along they barley even like each other these days but you know what? I was wrong. These two love each other more then I could have ever asked for. They are each others best friends and while that may change in their eyes it won't when it matters.

As a mom I know I've made mistakes, and I'll continue to make them as that is what teaches us but I'm very proud of my boys as I listen to how they interact in quiet moments like this.

Fall

My favorite time of year! It has been for as long as I can remember and there isn't one thing over the other that makes it that way I guess, just everything combined. The changing colors( I would LOVE to go on a color tour one day either in the UP or over in Maine), the cooler weather, not to hot and not to cold just perfect for jeans and a sweatshirt, school starts(yeah I know weird but I always did love the start of a new school year for some odd reason), new shows begin, the start of holidays with family I really just love this time of year.

New shows starting means more family time, odd I know but it happens that way around here. From Tuesday to Thursday Mike and I have at least one show that we watch nightly and I find that very calming. It's nice to sit on the couch with my husband and kids and just be together for the time being. Not much of that happens around here, usually we are at our computers and the kids are playing or I'm watching tv with the kids or he is playing a game with the kids we just hardly ever spend anytime together in one area enjoying each other.

Soon enough our lives will be turned upside down with the welcoming of our daughter and while none of us can wait and of course we love her for now I like enjoying my family as it is. We will never get these moments back and life is forever changing and moving ahead so I try very hard to cherish the small moments now no matter how meaningless they might seem at the time. In the end they will mean everything to me.

Just a short diversion~I took this photo yesterday as Kaleb and Mike watched the rain pour down. Kaleb found a new favroite past time, which is exactly as you see it. Getting daddy on the floor and watching the rain. All I could think of was "Precious" a moment we will never get back.

Please Lord Help Me Through This

As if this all weren't bad enough, Kaleb has a temp now of 101.7. I can't deal with this, I have faith in my husband and parnets to take good care of him but I'm not there. I only hear second hand and I'm not there holding him. I hear him cying on the phone to be cuddled and loved and I can't be there.

Lord help me through this. Lord please watch over Kaleb and let him be okay, please Lord let this pass quickly and let there be no other issues. Lord I'm scared and I need you now, I need you to be with me and my family and only you have that ability. Please bring me comfort and peace with everything going on. Help me let go and allow others to step in and help me. Please hold us close Lord.

Best Friends

I could not ask for anything more from my two boys. I thank God daily that when I prayed for a girl while pregnant with Kaleb he did not answer those prayers. These two are the best of friends. Andre says on a daily basis "Kaleb you are my bestfriend". Seriously is there anything better? Not in my book.

Andre begs for me to get Kaleb down from the highchair so that "he can come play with me in my room". "Come on Kaleb lets go play in my room". Not long after that I hear outbursts of child laughter. The kind of laughter where you as a mom sit and just listen for a moment and take it all in.

Of course there are always those small moments where one or the other wants to be left alone and they get snippy with each other but when those moments pass they are back to being buddies and hard a play.

Andre can make Kaleb laugh like no other. To watch them interact with each other amazes me. The things that Andre teaches Kaleb is never ending and what Kaleb picks up from Andre is unbeliveable.

As I type this I'm listening to Andre sing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" to Kaleb and I'm sure that Kaleb is looking at him with those huge blue eyes and dancing away, loving every min of his brother singing to him as he has done since we brought him home.

Rambles and Prayers Needed

Well week 17 has come and the doc appt went well this week. I'm back to seeing him once a month from now on. Thankfully no more bleeding. Our u/s is June 10th I can't wait!

Kaleb is in need of prayers for this next tuesday the 3rd. He will be going in to have tubes placed in his ears and though its a minor surgery that takes all of 15min he still has to be put under for this and that scares the hell out of me to be quite honest.

This weekend turned out to be a pretty good weekend. Got to spend some time with family which is always nice. I got really burned being out in the sun for 2 hrs on sunday which I regret. I now have water blisters on the spots that got hit the worst. Monday I ended up in ER for a migraine, they think I got to dehydrated on sunday even though I drank A LOT! Hopefully that won't be happening any more. I would much perfer not to go to ER if possible.

Well I'm off to get some cleaning done.