Couldn't Ask For More

As I put the kids to bed tonight, I sit and listen by myself( Mike is at a friends house ) to my two beautiful, loving little boys who may fight every once in a while yell back and fourth to each other as their nightly routine. It starts usually with Kaleb and it goes something like this......

Kaleb: Ondee(Andre)

Andre: What

Kaleb: I Wove U

Andre: I love you too

Long pause

Kaleb: Ondee, knock, knock

Andre:Who is there

Kaleb: Papa or whoever comes to mind at the moment

Then it is Andre's turn for Knock, Knock. If Kaleb is upset about something it goes something like this........

Andre: Kaleb your alright, don't cry, we can play together tomorrow

Kaleb: sobbing "K"

Kaleb: Ondee

Andre: What?

Kaleb: I Wove U

Then we proceed to Knock, Knock. This will go on for a few mins sometimes its back and fourth of exchanges of "Night nights" and "I love yous" instead, but its always something. I know that growing up there will be times where they don't get along and don't want to be seen together but I pray that they will always have this same love for each other.

I remember being pregnant for Kaleb and thinking "Oh my God what have I done? Andre won't be loved as much" and so on, most moms know where I'm coming from on this. And most moms who had two or more kids told me I was giving Andre the best gift ever. I thought they were nuts, siblings don't get along they barley even like each other these days but you know what? I was wrong. These two love each other more then I could have ever asked for. They are each others best friends and while that may change in their eyes it won't when it matters.

As a mom I know I've made mistakes, and I'll continue to make them as that is what teaches us but I'm very proud of my boys as I listen to how they interact in quiet moments like this.

Seriously?

How did this happen? I swore I was one of those parents who can't wait for their kids to get on a bus and leave for school, most days I really am one of those parents! Then today hits, it's family night at Andre's new school/classroom. I'm fine all day long, we get there and I'm still fine, check him and he is all smiles it's a go. Sweet! Walk through the first room where the kids will be hanging their coats and things into the next room which is the actual classroom and here come the wave of emotions. Where the hell did they come from? I hold back the first wave of wet eyes and blubber crying, five more steps into the room and here comes the second wave, yep got those in check too. As Andre looks at his new classroom with amazement and wonderment another hits and I curse these damn pregnancy hormones and quickly move on before anyone catches my slightly wet eyes. All in all I had about 4 waves all kept in check cause well I couldn't be the only blubbering mommy in the room!

Monday is his first day and he can't wait. He is so excited about wearing his new backpack and playing with the trains in his new classroom I really couldn't ask for anything more. He cried when it was time to leave, which I guess is better then crying because he had to be there!

Where did this time go? This is just preschool so why am I emotional? My goodness you'd think he was going off to college or the army or something other then PRESCHOOL! Lord what am I going to do when my last baby goes to school, fall into a deep depression?

Time moves so quickly it seems anymore. I'm happy that he is happy and I'm proud of myself and Mike for the good kid we have raised thus far, but seriously it doesn't need to be so darn emotional!

My Dear Andre

I know this week has been hard for you just like it has on everyone else, actually I know its been more hard on you being only 4 and not understanding fully why mommy is gone. You've done so well at having fun with your grandparents and dealing with me being gone but I know its taking a toll on you. I can hear in your voice now when I talk to you that your missing me and missing the "normalicy" of our life. Please honey bare with me for a bit longer and mommy will be home to cuddle you when your not feeling well and coax you through the hard times.

I love you so much and you've done so well for being put in the situation that your in. Being bounced from place to place has never been easy on you but your doing well and I promise I will do my best to make it up to you when I get home. Dry your tears, your daddy loves you too and know that I cry for you every night. Your such a good big brother!

So Much To Do

Gosh it seems like there is so much to do in such a short period of time. We will be moving the month of Sept and pakcing for that needs to take place then getting settled. Poor Ellie has two outfits yep thats it two outfits and lets face it two outfits will last a newborn a total of an hour maybe LOL. She is kind of being put on the back burner for now as I don't want to get a bunch of stuff and then have to move it and when we make the move Andre will be getting a bigger bed, Kaleb will move to the toddler bed and the crib will move to Ellie's room BUT we have to move first.

I feel like we are pushing the time limit here but all I can do is ride through it. Andre is turning 4 on the 21st of this month and we still have to buy his present(a bike) and still have to inform people where we are celebrating. Its just going to be a small family thing but we still need to get the cake and such.

Speaking of moving and Andre we have to paint his room too as the room he is moving into is PINK! Umm I'm thinking NO. Ack where are we going to find the time to do all of this and shop for Ellie? Goodness!

Best Friends

I could not ask for anything more from my two boys. I thank God daily that when I prayed for a girl while pregnant with Kaleb he did not answer those prayers. These two are the best of friends. Andre says on a daily basis "Kaleb you are my bestfriend". Seriously is there anything better? Not in my book.

Andre begs for me to get Kaleb down from the highchair so that "he can come play with me in my room". "Come on Kaleb lets go play in my room". Not long after that I hear outbursts of child laughter. The kind of laughter where you as a mom sit and just listen for a moment and take it all in.

Of course there are always those small moments where one or the other wants to be left alone and they get snippy with each other but when those moments pass they are back to being buddies and hard a play.

Andre can make Kaleb laugh like no other. To watch them interact with each other amazes me. The things that Andre teaches Kaleb is never ending and what Kaleb picks up from Andre is unbeliveable.

As I type this I'm listening to Andre sing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" to Kaleb and I'm sure that Kaleb is looking at him with those huge blue eyes and dancing away, loving every min of his brother singing to him as he has done since we brought him home.

Time Moving To Quickly

So, tomorrow will be 16wks. Where has the time gone? I'm very happy to say its going quickly and even happier to say that there has been no more bleeding! All has been peacefully normal here where ever "normal" is for us.

I enrolled Andre in school today for the fall. I really thought I was ready for this and was happy about him being gone part-time but when I walked in the school it was very bitter sweet. I dread September with the open house as I'm sure it will hit me even harder then. My baby, my first born who I spent many nights consoling and many days enjoying is growing quickly, to quickly for my taste at this point. He has taught me so much about myself and about life. He has given me so much joy with his hugs, kiss and "I love yous". His smile can light the darkest of nights and his laughter heals me in the hardest of times.

I love all of my kids but I have to admit that I miss the times we shared just him and I. They are few and far between now and it will only get worse from this point on as he grows up and realizes that mom really isn't all that cool.

So as the school year nears I'll be sending one off to preschool only to gain another precious child just a few short months after. What will I do with my life when they are all in school? Goodness I may just have to take up scrap booking with Zoe to keep my hands occupied ;)

Off to bed I go, its late and Lord knows sleep is a must though the truth is I'm not sure what a full 8hrs of sleep is anymore. Do people actually still get that?