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She decided she had enough by this point.

Did You Know?

That Andre has TWO girlfriends and seems to be the hunk of his preschool class. I found this out the other day as I entered his class room to help for the day and these two pretty little girls just can't get enough of him. I do have to say as a mom I'm quite proud actually hehehe!

Kaleb now thinks its cool to fart then announce it to everyone such as "Mommy I farted" with laughter to follow. LOVELY! He is quite honest too when you call him adorable and he says "Yes I adorable"! He does not lack self confidence so I'm doing something right.

Ellie is just as beautiful as ever, and when you tell her so she lights up the room. She is a happy little thing who loves to suck her thumb and bury her face into her blankie, what could be any more cute?

Why Do You Do That?

When Andre started getting teeth and they came in split in front you made a point to say something about it every time you seen him and it was always in "picking on" manor. When Kaleb was born and he was/is big you make it a point to say something about that and how he is his daddy but his daddy was never that big. Now with Ellie you make a point to say something about her big ears every time you see her and quite frankly if I hear it the next time I will say something. I don't care if your joking or not I work hard as a mother to build my kids up and let them know that no matter how different they are or anyone else is everyone is beautiful especially them. By you picking on them and pointing out their imperfections at some point they will break down and become self conscious and I don't want that for my children.

I lived like that and I will do everything in my power to not let that happen to my children. You are their grandmother act like it. I'm so sorry that they are not what they should be in your eyes but they are exactly the way they should be in mine AND Gods. I know you think their "imperfections" come from me and that's fine I'll take whatever I can claim of them since according to you they are their father.......I guess you mean the "perfect" side of them is their father right?

Back off, allow them to be kids, they will find things about themselves that they don't like soon enough as will other kids around them. Don't contribute to them hating things about themselves. Build them up and be apart of them loving themselves God knows in today's world loving yourself is one of the hardest things for anyone to accomplish.

Kaleb Your 2 Years Old

Where did the time go? I can't believe it was two years ago that you came into this world fighting, and you have never stopped. You are a strong little man who is funny, loving, high spirited, inquisitive, smart, bold, handsome and full of life. There are days when I wonder if I will make it through to the next day and those days you breathe life and laughter into me.

You simply amaze me, they way you speak in full sentences at the age of two, the way you understand things and I could swear you shouldn't understand, how you love your family and how your sole is so beautiful.

I pray that you keep your beautiful sole, I hope that keep dancing the way you do now, you don't care who is watching you will break it down anywhere in front of anyone when the right beat hits your cute little ears. I hope that the next year brings us closer as did this one and I pray that as you grow you continue to love unconditionally as you do now. You are my helper in the morning and my cuddle bug at night. I love every bit of you.

Small Blessings

There are things every day such as a blanket, a figurine, an animal, a rainbow, a smell or something else close to you that makes you remember a time, a place, or a special person. When you come across those things and you are remembered it usually puts a smile on your face as you go back in time for just a quick second and have a flash of fond memories.

Since we moved into our house I've been wanting some birdseed in hopes to get that one thing to bless my day and make me feel as though my Grandmother is still with me some how. My mother in law dropped some off to us this weekend and it took a few days for the birds to catch on that there was food there but finally they have. I was pleased this morning as I sat in my chair watching out the window to see Blue Jay's and Finches and even a Woodpecker and then they came. A male and female beautiful as they are, pecking the seeds as though they were grateful to even find food, beautiful Cardinals. The male bright red and the female a dull grey and red. It made me smile thinking of my Grandmother, she would have been so excited to see them herself they were her favorite.

Small blessings is all it takes to make someones day, mine has sure been made and my troubles forgotten for just a few seconds the world was right.

What bless's your days?

What To Do

I have a precious daughter who will NOT take a bottle and I need a longer break then what her feeding sechdule allows. I have a huband who won't help and doesn't have the patients to help anyway, no one wants to come watch my kids for fear I'll be gone longer then expected and they will be left with Ellie screaming, further more when I take her I can't always find a place to nurse her anyway. I'm not a breastfeeding savy mom who can nurse anywhere, as hard as I try it just doesn't come easy for me.

I would love to be able to go to dinner and a movie with my husband or friends but that is not going to happen if I can't get her to take a bottle. I keep thinking "this too shall pass" but I don't see it passing in time to keep my sanity.

Any suggestions? I've tired Gerber bottles, Nuk nipples, Playtex bottles(was successful a few times but now all she does is play and make a mess), Second Nature and all I get is a screaming baby. Somebody please help me.

Where Are You?

I need you, but your to wrapped up on your own life to see the signs even though I've been quite clear. I have always been there for you when you needed me whether it ment putting my family aside or not I was there. I really need you right now but things are odd, different and confusing. I feel like I was a part of your past life and I don't fit into this one.