Saturday, December 29, 2007

The Small Things That Matter

Kids are wonderful aren't they? They make life grand and interesting to say the least. In the last few days Andre and Kaleb have made some discoveries and those moments were just wonderful to witness.

Last night as Mike, Andre and I were sitting on the couch watching a movie Andre must have gotten board and became restless while trying to find a comfortable spot on my oh so soft belly he lays his head there and stops dead for a few seconds, as I watch his face with amazement and confusion he says in a hushed surprised tone" Mommy! That making noise" I asked him what was making noise knowing all to well what he was talking about but wanted to hear it from him " Your belly" he replies. I said yep my belly makes noise and so does yours and daddies too! He then proceeded to ask why and I explained in the simplest terms I could think of for a three year old. He took the explanation quite well but with such amazement. It was just one of those moments that will be embedded in my brain that when he is grown and out of the house I will be able to recall and enjoy all over again.

Kaleb on the other hand decided to bless my day today with blowing kisses. I've been doing this to him for months and he has now learned how to make the noise and so every time he seen me today I got lots of kisses blown to me along with giggles and flirty smiles.

Small moments with the two of them that will last me a life time of joy.Such wonderful gifts and blessings provided by Gods beautiful children.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to us our whole household is infected with a bad cold and flu bug! It started with Kaleb on Christmas morning and has since continued with Andre and I'm pretty sure I'll be next this afternoon to be making trips to the potty *sigh*.

Hope every ones Christmas was good and hope you all have a happy new year! I'll be back as soon as I disinfect everything from top to bottom.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Ego Boost


Today I got a wonderful voicemail from my dad thanking me for the joyous day he had with my boys yesterday(Wednesday). You see every Wednesday he watches my boys for me while I go to work and then we usually go to lunch. Well yesterday was a bit different, I was pretty sick with a cold so I cut work short and came home to veg while he took my sick boys out to his house for a few hours.


So today while listening to my voicemail he told me thank you for allowing him time with my boys and he explained that he watched Kaleb and Andre play on the floor and how this was the first time that he had seen them actually interact with each other and how hard Andre had Kaleb laughing. He said how wonderful it was to see such good, happy kids and that it is all because of me. (Blush) He said (gulp) that "I'm the best mother he knows" and "what a wonderful job I've done with them"(blush).


This is the BEST compliment I could ever get and it means more to me then words can say. I always compare myself to my dad because I think he is/was the best father anyone could ever have and I think how lucky I was to be raised by him. I often worry that I will never be able to teach my children everything my dad taught me but I'm trying my best. I am VERY blessed to have my dad he does more for me and never questions or asks for anything in return.


Thank you God for giving me my daddy.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Blessings

Wow, has God blessed us. I know that those of you who have read my blogs from the start know that my husband and I have had some money issues and times were tough. Well ask and you shall recieve, pray and you shall not go unheard. We are doing better now, our bills are all paid and we are still ahead. Christmas there will be gifts to exchange to celebrate the Lord and God willing we will continue to follow this path.

Speaking of blessings have you seen this beautiful snow that we were blessed with? Andre LOVES it Kaleb isn't fond of it yet but in due time I'm sure he and Andre will be enjoying the snow fights in years to come. I will post some pictures below of the boys in the snow. Andre had a blast as I taught him snow angels and the fun of a good old fashioned snow ball fight, what are moms for anyway? Well off I go to bed as tomorrow is a work day along with finishing the shopping for Christmas.

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Andre's very first snow angel

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Dear Angel

I've been thinking of you a lot lately, you must be visiting me to offer me comfort during this time of need. It's hard for me to believe that you would have been a year old this month, hmm I wonder what you would have been doing now.

I know that your beautiful and I know that if you ever had any pain while you were here it is gone. I know that your with your sibling right now playing in God's wonderful gardens. It saddens me that I can't see that but I know in God's time I will and we will all play together soon.

Though the pain of losing you was great I'm thankful God brought you Home when he did. It was a blessing in disguise for me. I'm sure your watching over your brothers, thank you for that. I'm sure both Andre and Kaleb see you and your sibling from time to time and though they may not know it now you comfort them too.

I may never understand why you couldn't be here with us and I'm still not sure what the lesson was but maybe some day there will be some light shed on me so I can put the peices together.

It's been hard through the last year. Your Aunt is having a baby this month and I won't lie it hurts. I have so many questions that go unanswered. No one understands my pain and why I feel the way I do, heck I don't even understand why I feel the way I do so why should they? I won't deny I'm jealous of her, she has been pregnant twice and have kept both babies, both babies due the same time you and your sibling were due. But I try to push through and be happy for her, it's hard but I try. God has a plan for everyone and lessons for each of us. He won't give us more then we can handle though sometimes we think enough is enough He is in control and we have release our burdens to Him.

Anyway Happy Birthday Angel, you may have not been born here on earth but you were in Heaven. I love you and miss you.

Mom

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Oh Dearest Zoe

How I love thee. You make life joyful and glee.Your stories are full of laughter and fun. The way you talk of anything under the sun. I'm sorry I left you out my dear you know I love you and I'll keep you near!

A Reflection Of Sorts

Wow, isn't it funny how life brings you bends, turns, friends and family? I'm a firm believer that God brings you people when you need them the most and though you don't know what that reason is for the time or you may never know sometimes you can figure it out.....at some point or another ;)

You see I'm very thankful for the people who have been in my life for long and short periods even if something ended badly or good for that matter you always learn from it and move on. In the long run it makes you the person you are.

I'm reflecting on this because there is a wonderful women who I met about three years ago through work and when we got to talking it just so happened that I knew her son through my husband. I knew that she had something special about her just from the short talks we had, I've learned a lot from her. Laughing I think now she was the first person that made me thing twice about circ'ing my children LOL. Anyway we don't talk much and we see each other on a hit and miss basis but I always enjoyed her company. She has been through some hard times in the last few weeks but through it all she has been strong and pushed through. She has taught me that though things happen for whatever reason you look ahead, look for the good and don't look back. Live for the here and now because the future can be scary and the past is the past. Thank you Kathy, you never know who's heart you might touch from day to day.

God puts people in your path for a reason, season, or a lifetime. Learn from them, love them, care for them, grow with them.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Friends and Marriage

Why is it that when you get married and have children your life is forever divided and you hardly ever see your friends? Maybe its just my life who knows but since I have a family of my own I never get to see my friends and almost always miss "special occasions" due to make decisions regarding my family over my friends which leaves me feeling like total crap in the end.

It seems as though I never have the time to stop by and see them mainly because I don't just want to stop for 5 min I want to be able to stay a bit otherwise its not worth it right? Then when I do have the time I'm too tired and just want to rest at home or something else comes up.

The holidays are the perfect time to get together buy everyone gets together at the same time which calls for decisions and usually family comes before friends AHHHHHHHHH I miss the days where I could do what I wanted when I wanted sometimes.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Oh Christmas Tree

What a blessing, my father was generous enough to buy us a Christmas tree and will be bringing it to us in the next few hours. I can't wait to get it up and decorate it! I LOVE Christmas and everything it stands for.

To make the night even more special while we were coming home tonight we drove by these two houses that decorate every year and they were just BEAUTIFUL!Praise the Lord!

Monday, December 3, 2007

Christmas Crunch

It is now the holiday season which means beautiful lights, cheerful voices singing to praise the Lord, with any luck beautiful, white, fluffy snow to cover the ground, trees and houses.

In my case this also means crunching for money and praying that we can provide our children with a happy chirstmas. We don't buy a lot but we like to have the tree and a few things to give each other and the kids, but this year I'm not really sure that we can provide that. This causes stress with the both of us and between the two of us. We are trying to stay positive and keep each other calm and focused though sometimes it gets the best of us.

You see at this point we are barley and I do mean barley keeping a roof over our heads and heat in the house. We are behind on other bills and I have no idea how we will pay them from one day to the next. By the grace of God and my mom we were able to buy food for the kids and diapers and wipes. By the grace of God we will get through this, we always do but thats not to say its not stressful.

So I ask of you if anyone is reading this and you believe in God please keep us in your thoughts and prayers that we can provide our children with somewhat of a christmas. Thats all I'm worried about I could care less about myself and husband I just want to give a christmas that they and deserve.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Cleaning Woes And Foes

Why is it that even when I clean from top to bottom my house still looks like a tornado went through it and left piles of crap everywhere.

You see I have this major thing with piles of junk just sitting, I can't stand to look at them and if I'm forced to long enough then piles of junk is trashed with no warning. My husband doesn't seem to understand that random piles=stress for me and stress for me=stress for him though at some point I think he would begin to understand he hasn't yet. This problem I have with piles is so bad that when random things get thrown away and he looks for them a month later the first thing he asks is "did you throw it away" LOL. Well maybe if you would put it in its place I would have to throw it away? Strange concept huh?

This problem is 10x worse when I'm pregnant because I have this urge to have EVERYTHING ready and in it's place like around 20 weeks and as the weeks grow on I become evil if things aren't done and put into place.

Would someone like to come over sometime soon and help me throw piles away? I could use the help believe me!

Bad Mommy Bad Mommy

Such a wonderful mom I am these days LOL. I was so wrapped up on friday with Andre that I had forgot for the SECOND time that Kaleb had to be in to get his booster flu shot! *Bangs head on wall*

When we went in the first time they told us since this is his first time getting the shot they will do it in two parts fine not a problem since I'm usually pretty good at remembering doctor appt. Well the first time the booster was on Monday and I thought it was on Wednesday *wrong* and well Friday was just a bad day anyway. I can only imagine what they are thinking at the doc office LOL. Oh well what can I say mommy brain kicks in and all hell breaks loose.

Friday, November 30, 2007

For The Love Of Daddy

Ahhh, for the love of my awesome daddy! Where would I be without him? He has been there through every step of my life always backing me, pushing me and saving my behind and today is no different!

My day starts at 7:30 am with Andre crawling into my bed saying "Mom" for one reason or another every 3-5 seconds no joke thats how some days are here. As the day continues Andre doesn't stop saying "Mom" for whatever reason and as of about 5 min ago it just didn't stop. Until I make a desprate call to my dad who swoops in to save my sanity! If that isn't love I don't know what is!

Don't get me wrong I love my children with every bit inside me but every parent should know there are just those days where if you don't get a break your going to seriously hurt someone and I was at that point today.

Praise the lord for dad!

Thursday, November 29, 2007

"Toast In My Eye"

Ah for the love of children. Last night as Mike and I were sitting watching "Till Death" the first scene showed the man bitting down on a peice of toast which so happened to have a peice fly off and hit him in the eye. Yes it was funny and even Andre laughed so as the night goes on and the boys get put to bed my conversation with Andre goes as followed.

Andre:"Mom"
Me:"Yes"
Andre:"I have to go potty"
Me:"Okay go"
Andre"Okay I'm done, come close the door and give me a kiss please"
Me:"Okay"
Andre:(rubbing his eyes)"Mom, I have toast in my eye"
Me:(trying hard not to laugh)"I don't think you do but let me check, nope just a finger"
Andre:"Laughter"

How wonderful it is to have small children to pick everything up and use it to stall bedtime, make you laugh and bless your night!

A Little Background

I'm a 25 year old mother and wife who often wonders how I got to where I am now. Though life moves slowly in the moment when you take a look back at the last 6 years its been quite the whirlwind.

I met my husband 7 years ago on "the ave" and never would have guessed that we would end up where we are now. He and I ran with different crowds but those crowds merged at some point and so here we are. The road hasn't been easy by any means but if it were easy then there wouldn't be history.

In the course of the 7 years we have been pregnant 4 times and have two living angels and two angels watching over us. These hard times have put strain on us but have also brought us closer.

Our two living angels are Andre born 7/21/04 and Kaleb born 2/27/07 they bring us so much joy I just don't have words for it. These two couldn't be more different but they are both loving, caring, beautiful children who have beautiful spirits.

Mike(my husband) and I did things a little backwards we had Andre and then two years later we got married and then came Kaleb. Doing things this way wansn't easy by any means but its how it happened and I wouldn't change any of it for it makes me who I am and us who we are. Everything happens for a reason right?

So that is a little background on who I am and who some of the people mentioned in the next posts to come are. This is our life and through life we try to laugh with it if you can't laugh with life then it can really bring you down so lets get on with the laughing!